i have a leurghy now and i am so not impressed

and i have left my cough lollies at home

weight is 88.9kg, 200gm up from last week i am not bothered coz my week was erratic

looking forward to having a good week this week

BOY UPDATE - Things are gooood

just jumped on the scales and i am holding steady at 88.7kg

i am happy with that. I am in the weird zone coz i have been at this weight before and then packed back on to my safety zone of 91-93kg so i am being extra cautious to really stay focused and motivated to move down to 85kg i think then i will be able to keep pushing.

i hit some key and lost my post so this one is just quick and to the point

Went to combat this morning and glad a i did you would be a millionaire if you could bottle the feeling you get after a big combat session. My fav instructor Katrina was filling in today and i loved the class.

Burned 517 calories too

Breakfast - 45g Vogels soy linseed bran, 1 sml banana and 125ml no fat milk and a skim cap (5.5 points)

no ideas re lunch yet

big day at work i better get started

Ciao bellas

i’m taking any little victory that i can this week and hump day is today’s victory. As i type this there is a plate of baker’s delight cakes in front of me and i can smell them but i am resisting coz i just don’t want them. I did have a small piece of one as my boss gave them to me to cut up just after i i had eaten lunch and i always crave sweet food after a meal.

I have been really good at resisting crap. I think it is coz my weight is moving again so it’s like ok body you did your part and rewarded my hard work i will keep up my end of the bargain and resist crap. Last night the boy tried to entice me with Domino’s but i stayed strong i had eaten my main meal and was not going to have extra fat and calories.

My training this week has been scrambled i haven’t done what i set out to because of social arrangements and sleeping in and only seem to be able to catch cycle classes. I am missing my pump!!!

The thing with the boy is going pretty, well i think when i chill the F out and just let thing take there natural course and relax things will be even better. I notice that i have this happiness about me. Love is grand i feel dizzy and airy when i think about him. Today i am tired coz i haven’t fully adjusted to being back at work. Speaking of which i better go and do some.

What a pleasant surprise to step on the scales for the first time in weeks and see 88.7kg staring back at me. i think this is the lightest i have been on my weight loss journey and i am over the 40kg loss mark.

In other news i am back at work today and i wish i wasn’t but going hpme soon so i’m happy with that

ok so i am not back with the as promised plan of attack for 2008 but to tell you the truth i feel a bit stupid making bold statements about getting to goal by X date etc etc i should have been at goal in like july last year i think. Don’t get me wrong i am full committed and going quite well but i just don’t feel like making those statements.

I’m PTing today with the Kelstar and i might get her to do measurements if we have time to see where i am at. I am so over my period at the moment this is day 11 i can’t believe it i think i almost have it beat but i thought that on monday too.

I am starting to get more organised i got a diary yesterday which i am going to use for my social life and for work. What is it about me that thinks ‘if i get sacked will i have to give work my diary that i paided $10 for coz i use it for work and social’ Fuck i am retarded sometimes my work probably don’t even know i have a diary!!!!

I am feeling very anxious lately i think it is because going back to work is pending sometimes i feel like i was back there so i would have to be anxious about going back. Also there is the boy issue. Lets start by saying i am crap at relationships.

Everything is on his terms

I am a hopeless romantic who loves love. The boy not the same

He drinks too much and parties too hard it doesn’t fit with my healthy lifestyle

I really don’t know how he feels about me. I jump straight in i want love, romance commitment and all that shit upfront.

I really like spending time with him but it’s the other time the away time that leaves me anxious and confused.

I don’t know whether to just focus on me and my training, my tafe course and my work or to give it a chance and see where it goes. Also how will i have a relationship when i am back at work? Gym before and after work and LONG work hours and family????

I know what i have to do i know i have to say ‘ Hey what are your intentions?’ Well maybe i will work on the wording a bit.

Also maybe i shouldn’t double up at the gym i’ve been reading the eat clean diet by Tosca Reno and she says the body beautiful is 80% Nutrition 10% Genetics and 10% Training. Of the 90% i can focus on i would say i have been doing 60% Training and 40% Nutrition lately and i think that Tosca is so right because when i had my biggest loses i was 90% Nutrition and 10% training i was just walking.

SHAME FILE - I am back on the diet coke but need to get off it last one was lunch time yesterday (i needed quick sugar almost fainted in Kmart). My skin is really taking a battering i am back on the pro active so i should see an improvement but i haven’t diet coke gotta go.

Tosca also says to drink your coffee black something i think would save me a few calories for sure and probably reduce my caffine intake by more than half i am going go give it a go. Coffee and we all know is one of my vices. I keep getting this voice in the back of my head saying you have to change something you have to trying something new something different to start shifting the weight again. I haven’t had herbal teas in ages need to do that again. Funny how we rest on our laurels and forget the things that made us successful in the first place.

Ok well soon i must go and train hard with the Kel. I’m going to sauna for 10 mins afterward too have a nice shower (as nice as a shower as you can have at FF) and see if my mummy wants to hook up for a coffee at the fig.

Ciao Bellas

i’ve read heaps of other peoples plans for 2008 and they all sound tops

i don’t really have a well defined plan there are bits and pieces

i think as i write this i need to go away and define the plan

i will be back

Yep i do

I feel so good having some time off work i almost feel like i can go back there soon.

I’m having such a blast just being

OK Gossip first re the man situation all is going pretty well i think i’m so shit and relationships i find myself second guessing myself all the time so i have decided to just be myself say what i want to say and do what i want to do not what i think is appropriate. Lets face it the soon he finds out i am crazy the better right?

Life is to short to not be yourself. I’m scared of getting hurt or making a fool of myself or the ultimate getting REJECTED but i need to get over that right? RIGHT!

I have found the best manicurist in leichhardt (Star Jasmine on Norton St.) If you are interested She is very good and sweet and is full of recommendations on her advice i got my feet waxed and nail art on both my ring fingers. Also she didn’t even flinch at ‘the toe’ wish my family could do that too!!! Also she does spray tanning for $28 i am going to check that out soon!!!

I got my Tosca Reno eat clean books in the mail today YAY i love mail i can’t wait to settle down tonight and start reading them. I’m going to do pump this arvo at 5.30pm and then off to Newcastle tomorrow to be the good grand daughter and take my Granny out for lunch and i think i’m taking her to get her hair and beauty done too.

ok now i am off to Marrickville to look for some black havianas or maybe gold ones

Mwah

p.s. i have to find some scales soon and see what i weigh

thinking of going back to WW but want to start in the city coz it’s easier than dulwich hill. Must find out what meeting my Dulwich Hill leader does in the city.