First of all let me have a whinge about me having an ear / throat infection. Ouch it hurts to swallow and i can’t wear my headphones in case my head explodes.

OK now that that is done i am kinda slowly realising that i have to modify my life a bit.  For the last six - eight  months i have done an ordinary job of losing weight i’m the first to admit it and it wasn’t like  i was lazy in that time sometimes i would spend 2 hours plus a day at the gym of course i was eating like a mule so that didn’t help.

anyway in the last 2 months lots has changed i have my wonderful man now who i love very much and even my pessimistic outlook can’t kill of the relationship so i have decided to just go with it. I have also started cert III in fitness which is a bit overwhelming 2 nights a week and i’m pretty sure it will cut into most weekends. So i’m working on a new schedule for life. The main thing is to not stress about anything. Whatever happens happens.

My plan is this to gym it 3 times a week

Monday PM RPM

Wednesday PM Cycle and

Friday PM Pump or running and weights

Tuesday and thursday nights are for tafe

Monday night for recovery (last night a romantic dinner of grilled seafood while watching some boat leave the city)

Sat and sunday for spending with my family and friends and my man who fits right into my family. Sometimes this will mean a gym session, a walk or a run or a swim sometimes it will just mean chillin with the people i love.

With the diminshed amount of exercise i will be doing nutrition will become key. Which i think will help coz from my own experience and from reading Tosca i know that nutrition is 80% of losing weight.

I have the strangest relationship with food. Why is it as fatties or former fatties we can’t eat anything ‘bad’ infront of anyone but then get home and binge and eat twice to three times the amount that we would have if we had just eaten 1 serve of the bad food in the social situation. I’m really concious of this at the moment and trying to put each situation into context.